Tuesday, December 30, 2003 @ 1:26 PM
hey peeps .. havent updated in quite a while .. yeah .. past few days had christmas celebration then went out with mel and they all ... quite fun ... but i dunno ... yeah ... dont have much to say .... so yeah thats all.... haha ... ok.... nights .....
Sally feels lonely ...Brandon's busying away... King's being mad and crazy
Friday, December 26, 2003 @ 12:52 PM
hey sweeties.. merry christmas... yeah yesterday had my christmas party at my house all my cousins and all came over .. really fun.. gott o know some new people ... hahah yeah there were lots of food too ... very wonderful .... yeah ... its was nice to see the family all together again .. and making noise .. lots of noise .. but good noise .. ahhaha yeah ...yeah then someone was suppose to call me back after that person's bath but no ... never call back .. made me wait till 3 ... so cheat my feelings... thank goodness my cousin was entertaining me ... yeah .. so like that .. terrible ....
Jean:/// thanks for your mail... its very nice :)
Tuesday, December 23, 2003 @ 6:36 PM
That night Sally felt disappointed but not suprised it happened. Her outing with Brandon had to be cancelled due to school. Brandon had to report back at school for a certain reason. so thats why they had to cancell their outing again. So it is again Sally loses out to school. Its one battle Sally will never win . never. Well i guess they dont call it a commitment for nothing. Sally knows school's really important and she knows she should understand but she's actually getting quite sick of it, she doesnt know how much longer she will be able to take before she snaps but yeah she assures everybody she will try to be very patient and understanding. So dont worry .. haha. well at least through this she has learnt an important lesson: never get your hopes up when going out with Brandon cause it will be dashed very soon. haha jusk kidding . but yeah it is true .. thats caution for future girls. haha well Sally feels both happy and sad today. She doesnt know wats she's feeling . Well i guess she'll just have to meet Brandon some other time.
hey guys today i went town after school with nat, rah, jean, mel and lily.. yeah went bowling .. it was retarded.. terrible .. yeah and at one part my ball rolled backwards .. i was so embarassed.. terrible .. yeah then went heeren met ray there exchanged a few words then yeah i went off with rah and lily.. and the bus was freakin cold... sickening .. yeah .. now there is some construction going on at my house ... so noisy .. terrible.. yeah got to go now .. take care .. love ya lots
Monday, December 22, 2003 @ 11:05 AM
its been a shit day ... feel so lousy ..
Yesterday , Sally felt really shit, She felt terrible. Not because she was sick but of wat Brandon said to her. Brandons words kept ringing in her head , she very much wanted to cry but she couldnt . Sally couldnt let her family members see she was crying. so she just held it in, she thought maybe after sometime it'll be ok but it never got ok . That night, Brandon called to talk, just a simple chat. Sally kept reminding herself not to bring the incident on king up, but she just couldnt help it . It just all came out.Brandon on the other hand was very cool abt it , so cool that it seemed as though he didnt care. Sally felt more hurt then before.She cried again, shetold herself to stop andbe strong like a woman but she just kept tthinking abt it and crying. She wanted so much to talk to someone , but they were all asleep . That night Sally felt so empty and so hurt. It was the second time in 1 month Brandon has hurt her. Sally wondered through the night how many times must she get hurt before things will be all right again. She prayed and prayed , she prayed she didnt have to feel this way again.. she prayed for everything to be all right every night, she prayed she could have her old Brandon back. Brandon still seem so different, he wasn't the Brandon Sally knew before. Brandon used to care alot, Brandon never offered Sally to anyone else. But that night he did. Why?..... Well sAlly still doesnt know but she hopes all will go well. She still wished Brandon had not said those words. those hurtful words. but dont worry ,, she still loves you .. ahhaa:)
dee
Sunday, December 21, 2003 @ 5:30 PM
and so the story continues....
King and Sally start talking again, but occasionally things abt the past is brought up and it leaves them in a diffcult position. Sally wonders how she has got herself into this mess, she really wonders but she doesnt know. She hasnt a clue, all she hopes for is for things to get back to normal , for things to be ok, for everyone to be happy again. But that hope seem to much to ask. Sally feels retareded she feels like a bitch , she feels she's evil causing so much trouble, but King constantly assures her she not evil and all .. It really touches Sally at how King is s supportive but no matter wat, she still feels that way... "Please forgive me, King , Brandon??.. i'm sorry , i'm really sorry for causing so much shit, i really am " she also wanted to say this to them , the both of them, but she enver had the courage too.. maybe its Sally's pride, but thats wat she really wants to say to them .. So as things go fine for King and Sally, its not the same way for Brandon and her.. in fact it seems worse...Brandon has changed , Sallys feels Brandon has changed.. She doest know exactly how .. but she's sure he wasn't the Brandon she used to know and it doesnt help when Star comes back into the picture. Thats right Star is backin the picture.. Sally seriuosly hasnt a clue wat to do now ... She's just leaving it to see wat becomes of it. so thats all the story has progessed... stay tune for more coverage of the story....
Saturday, December 20, 2003 @ 5:18 PM
hey peeps .. haha i change song .. Christmas time .... ahahhh.. well just wanted to wish everyone a very happy christmas .. aahaahha .. well story time
After hearing Sally's story , King has forgiven Sally and they are quite happy now.. But King says things will never be the same again.. Well Sally doesnt know wat to do abt it but she is taking one thing at a time ..at least she got his forgiveness. She like to thank King for his big Heart. As for Brandon and Sally , its still as it is ..
Wednesday, December 17, 2003 @ 8:54 PM
Today my friend told me a story and it made me cry. alot. now i'm going to tell my firend a story too.
There once was a girl named Sally, she had many friends and one day her friend, Mary decided to introduce her to her friend, Brandon. Brandon was an ordinary guy, he went to school, loved sports, had friends, despite knowing Brandon for a very short time, Sally and Brandon clicked pretty well, they had lots of stuff to talk abt and soon they became close friends. Brandon would tell Sally his probelms and Sally would tell her problems to him. Then throught this closeness, they started developing feelings for one another and soon enough they were attached. It was the best thing that happened to Sally. She was very happy. Very . Brandon was the sweetest boy ever, he gave in to Sally , he treated her like a princess. He gave her all the love he had. but something came over Sally and she broke up with him. That was their first break up. It was saddening. Brandon however still persued on with it.He continued loving Sally. He still believe they stood a chance to be together again.So did Sally. and there they were again.. talking late nights, loving each other.But u can say Brandon did show and give more love to Sally then she did give back to him. Then one day, Brandon stopped calling Sally, stopped messaging Sally. Sally wonder wat was wrong but she never knew. She tried to get things back on track again but it didnt work. Guess Sally didnt try hard enough.So soon things between Brandon and sally were over. Brandon messaged Sally on a Sunday night and told her things were over between them. That messaged crushed Sally. It crushed Sally badly.It crushed Brandon too. but he never told anyone so no one knew it crushed him.Sally was truly sadden by it.She realized she had taken Brandon for granted and regretted it but it was too late.All she did was lock herself up in the toilet for 4 hours and there she would be crying away, cutting herself.Then came a long King, her firend but had lost contact of. He was there for her . He comforted Sally , he gave her his shoulder to cry on. King was sweet. Though he kept denying it,all his actions and stuff he did was exactly like Brandon. He knew Sally missed Brandon alot so he decided to do watever Brandon did so that Sally would not be so sad. He let Sally tickle him, He let Sally sprinkle the chilli thing on his food though he didnt like it at all, he even sat at the bus stop with Sally. All was going better until King told Sally he liked her but Sally wasnt ready, more over she still liked Brandon. so she kindly and politely refused King. King was sad. very. Then suddenly Brandon told Sally he like Crystal this other girl he knew. the news crushed Sally even more though she was upsetr she still encouraged Brandon to go for her. Sally was sad , she was crying, every night she cried, King came back and still comforted her and talked to her. King knows he can never replace Brandon but he still tried. Sally was starting to accept him until Brandon told Sally he still loved her and wished they would be back together again. This made Sally very happy but very confused. She didnt know whether Brandon was serious. She didnt know whether Brandon still liked Star. Sally wished for everything to be ok between her and Brandon but she didnt know whether wat he said was true . She was frustrated and confused. She wanted very much to talk to brandon abt this but she just didnt know how too. and there Sally was, being self and all thinking only abt her self and brandon and totally forgot all abt King. King was still waiting for Sally , hoping that she would go to him. So King decided to talk to Sally abt it. King told her a story, a story he wrote by himself, a story that he meant from the bottom of his heart. Sally cried again. Sally didnt know wat to do. She didnt know wat to say. So she just kept quiet. King knowing that Sally still couldnt forget Brandon, he backed off, it was so not King to do that but seeing Sally would never choose him and he didnt want to put pressure on Sally he backed off. Thoguh it hurt him so, he still did it for Sally . King also said a phrase that Sally can never forgive her self for and she is truly sorry for that he said " i was a substitute, a substitute for Brandon". Sally feels really gulity and she admits doing so. Sally wanted to open her mouth and tell King how sorry she was there but the words wouldnt come out.She really wanted King to know that no matter wat he will still be her Big brother and she would be his sister. but till this day Brandon and Sally still remain a mystery. and to King . thanks for everything . this is to you.
Tuesday, December 16, 2003 @ 4:54 PM
From the day that I saw you
I knew that we would pursue
Cause the chemistry
we felt that day
Felt so real, and so true
Looking back on a year
we spent together
How it's been, what
we went through
Although we've had our
little ups and downs
We've still pulled through
Baby girl you're my
world my everything
I wanna lace you with
diamonds and every ring
Give you everything you
dream and fantasize
Cause you can tell me
that you love me
Looking in my eyes
You keep it real with me,
I keep it real with you
You keep on loving me,
I'll keep on loving you
Keep doing what you do,
I feel your whole aura
And I can't wait to hook up
again tomorrow baby - what
My love for you will never end
You'll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps
on passing by
You'll always be my baby boy.
Everytime I look at you,
I can't believe
I've found a love so true (and)
I took my time to put
my trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that I
spend with you
You make me believe I
have nothing to loose and
Deep down I always knew
that you would be mine
Do you believe in destiny
Because I got a funny feeling
this was meant to be
Without you I'd be lost,
I need you next to me
Preferably in the house full
of luxuries and little kids
From day one I was sprung,
knew you was gonna be one
Cause my heart spoke for the
very first time in a long while
And every time you smile, I can see us walking up the aisle with you
carrying my child C'mon
My love for you will never end
You'll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps
on passing by
You'll always be my baby boy
If you were to go, I don't know
You're the only one who
sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makes
my heart wanna beat and I,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel
has to be true
Cause you're my, my sweet love
Ever since the first time,
that I looked into your eyes
I knew that you were
gonna be mine
Feeling you from the inside,
when you're not by my side
You're the only girl
that's on my mind
I never knew a love like
this, a love so strong
A vision so picture perfect
it could never be wrong
Along the way, you're gonna
see you belong with Jay
I might have to marry you
one day baby eh..
This message is to YOU: I'm very sorry if i sound like i dont believe u ... i know it sounds like i dont trust u.. but i do .. i really do .. it s only this thing abt her and u that u have forgotten her already is very doubtful .. i dunno why ... but yeah... i really have my doubts abt this .. i know i should be believing u when u say these is nothing between u and her .. but yeah .. there is that part of me still questioning whether its true .... I'm really sorry .. really
@ 3:31 PM
hey guys ... havent updated in a long while ... yeah .. yesterday i went to sentosa for class outing ... went tanning..damn burnt k ... now my SB tanline very obvious .... very hahah.. yeah play the whole day k .. then after that went town/...stayed for a really short time though .. hahaha yeah... yeah today woke up early . went to buy books .. quite a number of books were out of stock .. so yeah ...damn tired now .. still sick ... flu and fever .. so irritating .. sickening ... then theese few days keep raining .. then very cold ... sick ..oh well should end of here .. got to go .. sorry
Friday, December 12, 2003 @ 5:39 PM
hey peeps .. today was a wondeful day .. ahhah woke up super early .. went to school .. yeah we sang so much today k .. yeah mrs yeo brought her son and daughter to sing too .. yeah they are so good .. wat the hell .. make me so a shame of myself can .. hahah yeah .. later on went to meet nat , cheng and michelle .. cheng's friend at bugis to watch Elf .. ahah quite funny lah .. yeah in the cinema there was this boy who laughs really funnily .. ahahha so cute ... yeah then we wanted to go toilet but like cannot find the toilet .. ahahha yeah .. then went to take neos k .. hahah dunno wat machine lah .. yeah and i was bloddy tempted to go and join the little girl in the fountain .. it was sio cool can .. hahaah yeah .. went home pretty early .. scared mum call.. haha yeah .. all of them sent me to the Mrt .. ahah yeah .. and i being retarded made them all squeeze on to one step .. ahahah yeah .. so u can image 4 people on one escalator step .. ahhaha ... yeah .. yeah sat Mrt all the way . yeah and ther was this GESS guy sitting next to me .. and he kept saying hi ... but being me i just rolled my eyes at him .. ahahahha .. ok yeah retarded ... ahahha
Nat:hey babes .. today u damn pink .. ahhaha yeah ... must go on monday k .. ahahha
Cheng:u BETTER go on monday k ... understand .... ahahah k had fun today guys .. ahahah..
Thursday, December 11, 2003 @ 6:16 PM
hey sweeties .. today was not a bad day ... haah went school early for sphere meeting .. hahah we were so not focused .. supposed to talk abt the events .. ended up talking abt rubbish ..mad one .. yeah then went town with yingrui, yingli and leanne .. ahahah yeah ate at pastamania ... haah all of us are like shit .. suppose to be on diet but still eat like no body's business ... yeah then went to heeren to take neos ... looked rubbished in it as usual .... hahha yeah then went bowling k .. they actually talked me into bowling .. they were practically dragging me on the floor .. hahaha my bowling skillls sucked ... they suck big time ... hahahhah well it was fun though .. hten later mel and nat came to see us bowl .. yeah then i went off with them ... went to meet lily ... sat at long johns ... yeah discussing abt whether the group of people behind us were sec 1s or 2s .. retarded right .. yeah then went heeren again to look for hair net .. hahaha yeah ... then went back again to cine to play machine ... but i left half way ... wasnt feeling too well .. chest very pain ... for the whole afternoon already ...hahha yeah zuliee is back .. hahah he lie to me .. say wat ??/... 1 week which meant he would be coming back on friday .. but no he came back today .. so cheatter bugger .. but oh wells .. glad to have him back .. k got to go school tomorrow again .. wat the hell right ... sickening... got to go .. bye
Wednesday, December 10, 2003 @ 7:05 PM
hey peeps.. went to school today ... early in the morning... yeah could not wake up u know .. so tired ... yeah .. could not sleep too .. was up whole night thinking .. haahha yeah ... yup went town after school ... went to eat at Long john's before the movie .. yes and i made a fool out of myself .. cause u see it was raining .. and the floor is super slippery .. i slipped and almost fell .. in front of this group of people .. ok i felt freakin retarded .. weel yeah .. went to watch lvoe actually ... 3rd time k ... not kidding...yeah sat next to beep .. we laughed till we wanted to die ... serious ... beep thought the whale at the Birth of Jesus ..was super funny .. yeah and the octopus too .. we laughed seriously hard man ..yeah then went home with rissa .. sher ,, and beep .. in the bus again we laughed and laughed ... dunno wat was it exactly abt .. but i think it was her naming her children Dodo .. and Fish ball ... yeah .. raining again ... walked in the rain ... so cold .. yeah wonder hows zuliee doing ..hope he's fine now ... k take care hun .. see ya ...
Tuesday, December 09, 2003 @ 5:41 PM
hey peeps.. just came back from the hospital after liek being ther for the whole freakin afternoon ... gosh those people are slow .. do everything so slow... gosh .. how to save people u tell me??.. terrible ... finally they allowed me to go home .. stupid pple u know ..... and today talked to zul .. oh man .. i hope he is al right .. he will be ... i dont care.. he has to be ... k dearie take care k ... gosh everybody's in the hospital out of a sudden... sickening...
Zuliee:/// hey sweetie .. u awill be all right k .. get well soon .. u'll live through it ... just think of starry k when u are in pain .. u wil get well .. must come back singapore then we will sing more elmo songs k ..... and go shopping ... k .. take care dearie .. love ya lots
Monday, December 08, 2003 @ 1:37 PM
hey peeps .. last few days been watching the Sea Games .. so cool so evciting .. oh yeah i bought my christmas dress already .. its a black halter dress .. and i look absolutely retarded in it .. k .. i look sick but yeah i just bought it anyway .. ok yeah ... anyway today i receive a mail from my friend...he said he doest know .. but i know deep down he kkknows .. he knows how he feels towards her .. i think i know how he feels towards her too ... he likes her ... but there is juz one stupid little freakin thing stopping him ... dont worry hun .. i will get rid of that one tupid little thing for u .. yeah .. yeah today my sis stayed home to watch Meteor Gardens .. again .. she weird man .. ahahah . yeah .. rome came over for dinner yesterday .. and we so forced him to eat all the food .. ahahah .. yeah .. k dont feel like writing already .. not feeling too well ...
Saturday, December 06, 2003 @ 3:45 PM
All About Me!!
-The Basics-
Name?: Denise
Sex?:Female
Birthday?: 28.10
Location?: Singapore.at buona vista gardens at the computer
Height?: short
Weight?: heavy
Hair Color?: multi colored. black . brown. golden. red.
Eye Color?: dark brown
-Social Life-
Who is your best friend(s)?:nat, mel, pei , jean, rah, ah wei ,jana, lil, zel
Would you rather be alone, hangout with one other person, or in a group?: in a group .. more the merrier
What would you consider a typical Friday nite?: watching tv.. tv freak
How often do you go out on the weekend? during the week?:on school days .. everyday ..holls.. most of the days
Would you rather spend the day with your family or friends?: friends.. not much in my family
-Love Life-
Are you single?: yes very much
If so, do u have a crush?: no... oh yeah the boy in Love actually .. Sam
What is his/her name?:Sam ...
If not, what is his/her name?: single ..
How long have you two been together?: still single
-This or That-
Night or Day?: both
Cat or Dog?:dog
Ugly and Sweet or Hott and Mean?: ugly and sweet
Hot or Cold?: cold
Tall or Short? short .. like me ... haha
Prep or Punk?:punk
Winter or Summer?: summer
McDonalds or Burgerking?: BK
Hard or Soft?: soft
Yes or No? yes
Do you drink?: sometimes
Have you ever gotten drunk?: nope
Do you smoke?: nope
Have you ever gotten high?: nope
Are you prude?: no
Are you a virgin?: yes .. duh
Are you smart?: i like to think so
Are you ugly?: yes unfortuanately
Are you pretty?: no
Are you trustworthy?: i guess so
-Random -
How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?: 3 or more
How many pairs of shoes do you have that actually fit?: lots
What size bra do you wear?: now lets not go there
Have you ever colored your hair?: no .. it already looks coloured
What pieces of jewlery do you wear everyday?: my crucifix
Do you have a cell phone?: yeah.. cant live without it
Name three things you "can't live without": my phone . my friends . tv
Who do you talk to the most on aim? phone?: phone
What color(s) is your room?:green
Do you have a computer in your room?:nope
What time do you usually go to bed? wake up?: it varies .. depends on me
What's your favorite clothes store?: Top shop ..
Do you wear makeup?: no
Do you paint your nails?: yes
What size shoe are you?: 4
Did you like this quiz/survey?: its alright
Friday, December 05, 2003 @ 8:14 PM
hey sweets... haah today was like out the whole day .. hahah so fun .. as usual went town .. haah decided to wear a skirt today .. decided to be girl for once .. hahhaa .. yeah met pei and mel and rah in town @ 10 plus .. yeah watched Love Actually .. again . but yeah it was fun .. hahha yeah .. then some woman like scolded us for putting our legs on the chair .. like wat the hell man .. neh lah that woman .. yeah ... then went to like Long John's to eat .. haha was super hungry k .. and yeah super cold ... so yeah .. jo came to meet us.. yeah ... then we went Shopping .. Shopping Time...!!!! hahah .. yeah went to like Taka then wisma .. Topshop Warehouse ... yeah .. mel and pei and rah also tried on skirts .. ahahhaha .. pei looked nice in the skirt .. by she dont wanna buy .. rah also ....then went to heeren .. yeah i tried this back skirt from IS ... oh my so nice .. but yeah a little big .. but guess its all right ... so .like goanna bring my mum to buy it ... yeah ..by this time we actually were tired already // so we went back to cine and like bought ice cream .. Double Chocolate .. ahahah heavenly .. but super Fattening also .. but yeah wat the hell .. it was good .. went to play games again ... ahahha yeah didnt get to be in the high score board .. but yeah quite fun .. yeah left the place at abt 4.30.. yeah went home with pei and rah .. rah was going to her Gramps house u see.. so yeah .. took 106 to Holland .. yeah decided to go buy Slurpee ... haha so i was super thirsty but no sarah refused to let me buy a drink from cine .. so yeah draged her and pei to 7-11 to buy coke slurpee .. ahah not bad .. then walked to busstop and waited for 200.. hahah yeah .. thats abt it .. i cant wait for Sea Games .... so exciting .. ahahah yeah .. i'm retared .. yeah in the cinema today .. pei and i were like going crazy over that man, Carl .. cause his body was freakin sexy and hot and his face was damn cute .. and yeah that small boy also , Sam .. so cute man .. he is goin togrow up to be a freakin gorgeous man .. haha ok i'm crazy ... yeha k .. thants all folks .. right again soon ..
Pei: hahaha pei carl is hot and sexy ... ahahha .. he still is ...we must watch it again .... hahaa
Jo: woon .. dont pull me across the road again .. ever .. i was wearing slippers .. come on .. i cant run in slips... u ah ... not funny k ...
Zuliee: hey .. have a nice time in bali.. dont forget to miss starry .. causr i'm sure starry misses u ... ahahhaa ok ....
Thursday, December 04, 2003 @ 5:33 PM
hey dearies... nothin muched happened today .. i woke up abt 9 plus .. made breakfast k .. sandwich with luncheon meat .. yeah .. sis said it was not bad .. cool right.. yeah then i like watched tv the whole day.. yeah i know i'm a bummer ... i'm the queen of bummer .. hahah yeah .. so yeah .. then like yeah now my phone's off at 7 coz like my bill is super high . so yeah mum gave teh orders for it to be switched off at 7 .. so yeah pple if like u all looking for me .. do call my house k .. thanks .. yeah tomorrow .. going shopping .. finally i go back to my town lifestyle ... finally .... hahaha .. yeah .. cool .. back to my life .. the towner..ok watever now i'm juz crapping away .. retareded ... ok yes 14 dec still got performance .. so retareded i dont feel like going ... hai ....
Zulieee: weel dearie .. have a good trip to bali .. enjoy yourself .. come back in one piece .... and yeah dont get to tanned there .hahah oh yeah and dont miss starry to much .. ahahah .. k take care
Nat: heyo dear.. tues cannot .. go hospital .. another day .. ahahha u ah .. your schedule and mine clash i tell u ... ahahah k
Wednesday, December 03, 2003 @ 3:30 PM
hey today has been quite a bummerfied day .. but feeling quite accomplished.. dont feel as useless anymore .. ahaha . i finally told my Christmas Truth .. hahah finally ..yeah .. quite accomplished .. yeah it was quite saddening yesterday .. but yeah .. its ok .. i also set up my christmas tree yesterday .. cool right .. yeah and i hung like lots of decoration .. its goanna look beautiful for christmas .. hahaha i still have yet to buy my Christmas mass clothes .. going with mel this friday since nat cannot come .. yeah .. i think like i'm goanna wear some skirt yeah ... i dont feel like a dress .. so yeah .. haha .. yeah then my family's australia fren is going to come over ... on 13 dec .. yeah cant wait for her to come .. so fun ...yeah dad's comign home too .. so yeah .. cool .. oh yeah sis went for some interview .. yeah to be some sort of waitress thingy .. ahhah .. yeah all the best to her .. yeah guess thats all .. i dont really have a lot to write today ..
My dearest Friend: please dont feel gulity .. and yeah .. its not your fault .. really .... so please dont feel gulity .. yeah .. k .. k .. so like stop blaming yourself .. yeah and yeah i miss u too ...
Nat: nat my resist k .. dont worry i'm here to help u .. dont worry .. u can come to me .. k take care yeah babes .. love ya
Tuesday, December 02, 2003 @ 12:29 PM
I am the most useless person in the entire world ... i think they should like give out a prize for the most useless person .. i think i would get like the gold medal for being the most useless being... i think like i should change my name to be Mis useless ... Oh God .. why .. why am i useless .. i'm such a disgrace to everyone .. such a disgrace to Stc .. such a disgrace to my family .. such a disgrace to the woman species... Fuck lah ... i simple thing also cannot do ..in the end make things worst for me .. i seriously deserve to be shot .. i should juz die u know ...less weight to the universe... oh goddess..why have i let myself become of such a state ... i hateu .. i freakin hate u .. i hate the entire universe ..freak.. why did i let u do this to me .. why didnt i tell u off .. why did i juz keep quiet.. it is so not me ... so so so not me .. wat have u done.. wat have i done .. ok ok .. i must cool down .. i cant let it get to me .. it doesnt matter wat u do to me .. i'm very happy with it.. i freakin happy ... everything is so wondeful .. yea thats right .. i'm a happy lark .. i love you
dee
Monday, December 01, 2003 @ 5:50 PM
More abt myself .....
LEVEL ONE
-- Name: Denise
-- Birthdate: 28.10.89
-- Birthplace: Mount Eliz, Singapore
-- Current Location: Still Singapore.
-- Eye Color: dark brown
-- Height: Short.. ahah
--Clothes: Black sleevless tee and yellow shorts
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: scorpio
LEVEL TWO
-- The shoes you wore today: Slippers from cine
-- Your weakness: irritaing.. demanding..bitch..anoying.complainy.sickeing
-- Your fears: insects .the dark. being alone. no friends , no one there for u
-- Your perfect pizza: No olives.. no nothing .. just cheese and yeah few nice ingredients .. but lots of cheese please
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: now?? to go back to my normal self.. later on in life ?? to be a doctor.. good doctor..
LEVEL THREE
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM/MSN: hahha.. nehneh
-- Your thoughts first waking up: what day is it today??
-- Your best physical feature: none
-- Your bedtime: ranges from 11 to the next morning
-- Your most missed memories: times at 2 E.. and times with my fren
LEVEL FOUR
-- Pepsi or Coke: coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: BK .. Bk rawks
-- Single or group dates: hmm first time then double .. if not then single
-- Adidas or Nike: adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or nestea: none!!! pokka!!hahha
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: none.. coke
LEVEL FIVE
-- Smoke: no
-- Cuss: nah
-- Sing: hardly
-- Take a shower everyday: of course .. i cant stand myself being dirty
-- Have a crush(es): yeah the guy at LJ on friday .. ahah ok watever i take that back
-- Want to go to college: yes of course
-- Like high school: yes
-- Want to get married: yeah
-- Believe in yourself: sometimes .. but not now
-- Get motion sickness: when i read or look at words on a moving vehicle
-- Think you're attractive: no
-- Think you're a health freak: no
-- Get along with your parents: sometimes. yeah i guess
-- Like thunderstorms: no .. i like light drizzle .. so romantic .. but no the thunder .. thats juz scary
-- Play an instrument: guitar . piano
LEVEL SIX: In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Smoked: no
-- Done a drug: lots ....
-- Had Sex: no .. i dont think so.
-- Gone on a date, with who: yeah.. maybe. my fren
-- Gone to the mall?: yes .. everyday i'm there
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no.. too much
-- Eaten sushi: yes
-- Been on stage: yes .. jus on saturday
-- Been dumped: well yeah i took it as he dumped me .. actually i dunno.
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: no .. not exactly the housewife material
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: no .. my hair already looks dyed
-- Stolen anything: no.
-- Cried over something or someone: yeah jus yesterday
-- Felt you were a fool: yes.
LEVEL SEVEN : Ever..
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes .. but i only took of my shirt . i was good k..
-- If so, was it mixed company: yeah ....its ok .. zel striped to her underwear didnt she ?? .. ahhaa
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no
-- Been caught "doing something": yeah ...twice i think
-- Been called a tease: no
-- Gotten beaten up: no.. i think i beat pple up first
-- Shoplifted: no
-- Changed who you were to fit in: dunno
LEVEL EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: 23, 24,25
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2 children 1 boy 1 girl . boy will be older . boy's name : Christopher Michael.. daughter's name : Cystal Michelle.. boy must be at leat 2-3 years older
-- How do you want to die: fast quick ..no pain
-- Where you want to go to college: if possible . RJ if not NJ or ACJC
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: doctor
-- What country would you most like to visit: new Zealand.. holland.. north pole.. africa...
LEVEL NINE: In a guy/..
-- Best eye color? dark brown, black
-- Best hair color? black, brown
-- Short or long hair: short. now i dont wanna go out with some hippie
-- Height: taller than me.
-- Best weight: anything lah ...
-- Best articles of clothing: anything nice. not too old man ..not too loud ..
-- Best first date location: anywhere .. movies or a meal i guess
-- Best first kiss location: anywhere... in the middle of town also can ... so romantic and nice and sweet..
LEVEL TEN
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: none
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 1.. God
-- Number of CDs that I own: quite a number
-- Number of piercings: 2
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: never
-- Number of scars on my body: lots
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: losing friends .. letting myself get hurt by someone who doesnt even seem to care and is with some other girl now ... cutting my self ..
@ 12:50 PM
today sucks man ... have not slept the whole night .. feel like shit .. look like shit .. i am shit .. Freakin thing has been on my mind the whole night.. Fuck lah .. why cant i just forget it ...why .. why .. why .. i'm like freakin useless.. suppose to tell something .. in the end never tell .... i mean it for the christmas season .. suppose to tell the truth .. was so close to telling then no ... i chickened out .. stupid man .. i should be like awarded for my stupidity...yeah and suddenly 'm freakin generous and noble .. happyily give people away ... zel i think u are right ... i'm fuckingly fickle ... and fuckingly generous out of a sudden ...but wat was i to say ... wat ... i could not say .. no she horrid .. dont go to her ... i cant right .. it'll make me look like a super bitch ... so wat was i to do ...Wat??? Wat??? ... ARGH!!!! this fucking thing .. fuckingly sucks ... i dunno .. i think i am super fickle .. i say go its ok . but then i feel like shit .... then i change my mind .. but dont dare say .. zel how ???? wat am i to do ???? .... i think i'm screwing my self further ... i think i just ause more harm to myself .. i should be shot dead.. i should be burnt at the stake ...i should be murdered .. i should be stabbed 2222 times then pushed onto the road and wait for the bus to bang me down ...why like that ??? am i that stupid ... why .. why .. ARGH!!! it sucks.. u suck .. i suck ... that freakin person suck ... we shall all perish and never come back ...... ARGH!!!!
jas: i'm really sorry .. i had school and i hope u do understand .. really .. sorry .. and yeah i'm useless . i dint tell in the end ... i was scared ..but i had a valid reason for not telling .. if u heard wat the person said .. u know why i didnt tell .. but first dont be angry i'm sorry .... :(
zel: hi zel .. i think u are right .. i freakin fickle .. wat to do ... wat am i to do ???.. u tell me ??? wat am i to say ...?? how to forget ??? i really want to forget abt everything .. i think u want to too...?? i'm really sorry abt u and zach yeah ??? dont sad ... if u want someone to like die wth u ... please come to me .. i gladly go with u ..... my doors are always open.. lets meet up and we can knock our heads against the wall yeah ... cool .. set
Nat : nat dont worry i'll watch with u ...... i also need to go christmas shopping for my christmas mass .. so yeah .. i need u to help me ... so yeah we will like arrange sometime soon yeah .. k