Tuesday, March 30, 2004 @ 7:28 PM
Missing ya loads... still...
Sunday, March 28, 2004 @ 3:18 PM
We've drifted so much till the point we walk past each other without saying a word, without even noticing the other is there.. so similar to that of a stranger.
Tuesday, March 23, 2004 @ 8:34 PM
pissed!!!
hey today had house prac ... screamed until my voice totally went off .. ahaha yeah ... then ya rushed down all to watch the match but there was this certain someone... a pig .. waiting for me at the gate .. and so totally dampen my mood... that certain someone said some stuff.. which made me not go in ... so ya .. guess that certain someone finally got his way.. finally ... happy aint you .... fine ..u win .... ya was at the gate then yeah zel came to see me .. then she told me that certain someone was inside .. so i totally didnt want to go .. then we were like pulling each other .. ya totally weird . then this guy came and like stared at us ... haha it was quite funny .. until that certain someone had to come and purposely irritate me... like so totally can .... wadever .. YOU SUX!!!!!
Friday, March 19, 2004 @ 10:32 PM
totally lost..
people ask me why i look so happy all the time.. why i always smile .. why show all emotions accept my sadness( tat's when i'm sad)..why i keep it all in.. why i dont like to tell pple or even why i choose tot ell the pple who are not there.. or pple that simply dont care or are not the least bothered..pple always ask why do i always trust the wrong pple.. why i let pple hurt me..why i allow myself to be hurt.. pple ask why .. pple ask why i dont forget abt unhappy things.. pple ask why i keep them in my mind.. pple ask why i dont let go..pple ask why i dont go to them for help ..pple ask why i dont allow pple to have a chance to care..pple ask .. pple ask why. why .why ..pple ask so many questions.. but not one ever gave me an answer. and it puzzles me why i'm like that ..and i ask myself why.. but i dunno why... i have no answers..pple ask why i keep distanting myself... and i dunno why . pple ask why i put a" protective shield " around me . i dunno whhy.there was never once i knew.. why???? do u have the answers??.. would u like the tell me??so many questions but so little answers. hmmmmmm
hula
@ 11:02 AM
Silly Old Me
once again silly me has emerged.. after a pretty long time .. guess its really hard for someone to change.. yesterday i didnt sleep till 6.. thinking stranger would actually call back .. but i was wrong .. actually by 4 i already knew he wouldnt call back .. but yeah still waited ...and come to think of it now ... i feel rather foolish ... like totally man .. hai ...ohwells wat to do ... i'm retareded ... so yeah ... like totoally .. now i'm so sleepy but yeah can tget to sleep .. dont feel lke going out today but i know i have to ... well just hope we could change the venue eh ,vin.. like somewhere near to my house ... yeah suppose to watch the eye2 today .. but i'm so freaked .. saw the commercial yesterday ... i almost died.. so totoally .. welll we'll see abt that ...yeah .. but i really wanna watch Dirty Dancing 2 .. like really.. hahah yeah .. i feel my backs going to break .. i've yet to do .. my homework .. ss and chinese.. i have nothing to write for reflection.. oh dear .. and school's reopening onn monday ... k .man ... ahha .. yeah i'm going to lay on my sofa now man ... byes
hula
Wednesday, March 17, 2004 @ 9:46 PM
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@ 7:16 PM
today was a fun day .. mel and wei came over... took photos and all .. did homework together and mel fell of my bed .. dunno how she did that .. but yeah .. and wei and her were jumping on my bed ... then suddenly there was this loud bang .. everyone rushed off the bed .. like tottally .. ahaha yeah packed my box full of letters .. read then again .. it was wonderful .. got to know things i forgot abt .. it really brought back memories.. yeah i read stranger's letters.. it was sweet ... and yeah .. do miss stranger and the times... well its time to give it up ... :(.. but ohwells .. look on the bright side .. at least i experienced it once before...
Tuesday, March 16, 2004 @ 1:05 PM
Day out
today woke up and stepped out of my room calling Ginni .. ahah i think everyone thought i was mad... i seriously thought i was still in camp.. ahhaha yeah then rushed down to town to meet mel, rah and wei to watch movie... Something's gotta give... it was the best show man ... so sweet.. so funny too.. but yeah it was kinda saddening ... hahah yeah .. dunno why the movie mad me think abt stranger again .. been trying very hard not to think abt stranger .. ahah yeah i thought abt king too.. ahha weel ya .. it was a good show.. then later on went shopping for pple's presents... 8 pple's presents.. ahah waled like from cine to heeren thent o orchard edmerald..then too taka.. then back to heeren .. then to cine.. it was a mess.. then had tuition ... yeah late in the night .. totally....
To king: why didnt you tell me you were upset with me.. you felt that way .. i'm sorry .. but i really didnt notice.. really.. why didnt u tell me .. i had to ehar it from zel..... i'm sorry .. really.. i know that day u came down and all . then u missed me and stretched out your arms and wanted to give me a hug.. but i just stared blankly at you and smile.. i know it was a little anti climax.. but i didnt know u took it so hard.. i'm really sorry .. but dont get me wrong i was happy to see u there... but i dunnno.. really.. everyone lately has been telling me how vexed and troubled u look .. and yeah i know at least that person who u tolds your worries too told me .. its cause of all that has been happening lately..i'm sorry i have to put you through this time after time.. i am .. you how u are there when things go bad between me and stranger then you are ther .. then when things are fine you just automatically dissappear.. then now you're back again to support me... but i'm pretty sure you'll support me for a preetty long time this time... i know you are quite troubled but my actions and all .. its as though i'm not "responding" to you right.. i know cause i'm truely not responding... i know that for a fact.. i wont deny it.. i dont wanna respond.. well at least not yet.. i dont feel ready to respond.. i dont feel ready ... not at all.. i'm seriously quite tired..i dunno maybe its just not the time... maybe i'm just not capable of giving one happiness.. maybe i just cant.. you know now i seriously doubt that i can give anyone happiness... really.. maybe u should stop wasting your time.. cause to be honest .. i dontt hink i'm going to come round soon .. maybe i will .. maybe i wont .. but i just dont feel so .. atleast i'm no prepared.. ctually i dunno ... but i know i'm orry if i did anything to make you upset of anything .. casue really it wasnt in my intention .. i really dont mean to hurt anyone.. really anyone at all ... please believe me .. i really dint mean to hurt you or v, stranger ..r eally .. and if i did i'm terribly sorry .. really/....
hula
Sunday, March 14, 2004 @ 4:01 PM
Camp wonderful
hey hey just camp back from EFL... that was the most wondeful experience.. totally... ahaha well ya .. had a really good time there.. fun and all ... ya got to know lots of my class mates better.. pple like Shaleen, Ginni, Ninie, Joanne.... totally.. it was ultimate fun .. but yeah there were lots of bruises too.. my legs have cuts on them ... i took a bus ride there 9 hours or so .. during then .. 3A was mad .. totally mad crazy in fact.. ninie . joanne were singing songs at the top of there lungs .. ahha yeah got sometime to bond with a certain friend and she really thought me alot. and it really got me thinking .. she said " to love and be loved is the bestest thing. Its no use of loving someone so much know will never love you anymore.However, you can be just as happy when you are with someone who you love not as much but that someone is willing to love you back . cause that someone will try his/her best to make you happy and love you to the fullest".. i thought abt wat she said and i straighten out my thinking ... thats was one memorable part.. totally ... hahaha yeah abt shaleen .. ahhaha she damn cute..i seriously think i'm like bullying her or something.. she and Rathika .. cause they have really weird ways of standing.. Shallen- with one hand in her pocket and the other dangling.. so i mad her stand with her arms at the back of her .. Rathika - she always poses for dunno wat.. so i also made her stand at attention .. ahah yeah .. and our class is crazy ... we have to potential couples who actually look good together.-Rathika & Shaleen and Lily and Jeanette.. the Husband and Wife couples- Xiaowei & i and Ginni & Jade.. Covalent sisters- Stacy & Xiaowei ...and 3A's very own HANSOME- Ginni .. and her many Chiobus including me ... ahaha yes and i'm Hui xian's Poh Poh Junior.. ahaha thats retarded.. yeah camp was a blast seriously and the star view was totally wonderful .. yeah i would definitely want to go for EFL again man.. and yea honey jas .. i know u missed me .. so did i k ... missed all of u lots .. toally...
Wednesday, March 10, 2004 @ 12:13 AM
If i promise not to feel this pain . Will i see you again? Will i see you again?
hmm things arent going so well. things have gone so bad . so bad. it really saddens me to see us like that . even if we were just friends. i knew things would never be the same. but i didnt realize it would be this different. this bad. it totally succks. you dont even have anything to say to me. you dont even talk to me anymore. it really hurts.. really. it really hurts to know i have to talk to myself all the time. please dont treat me this way .. please dont be so hostile.so much like a stranger.. so not you .. i really really miss the old u .. the old u that would talk abt rubbished things with me .. the old you that would laugh with me.. the old you that would comfort me when i was sad. wat has happened ??.. i know this change was caused by me . but please stop. please.please.i feel so suffocated. please.
*maybe i'll never learn to smile*
Hula
Monday, March 08, 2004 @ 9:38 PM
wandering mind
heys ... the night before talked to stranger .. it was nice talking again .. didnt talk for quite sometime .. it was damn nice.. really missed stranger .. haha weell ya today sucked man ... it was terrible .. the whole day was terrible .. school was a disaster ... yeah anyway was suppose to have tuition but it was cancelled.. so yeah came home with charlotte ..it was raining so heavily .. decided to walk in the rain .. ahhaha yeah ... still raining now .. and not in the mood for tv .. surprise eh .. going for EFL soon .. goanna miss everything .. town ... ahahah yeah. k gtg now .. byes...
Sunday, March 07, 2004 @ 10:33 PM
Missing everything
hey hey .. today was quite a fun day .. haha yeah .. early in the morning i watched 7th Heaven .. my all time favourite show... ahaahah . then went out to christ the king. its really nice but yeah really small too .. it was kinda squeezy .yeah but ya then rushed down to West Mall to watch the Anti drug performance ahahha ..yeah some schools were really good .. tp was good .. as usual stc was the best .. hahah yeah but some schools u just totally dunno wat the are doing.. yeah then saw my neighbour dancing ..it was so shocking cause i never knew he was in dance.. yeah and some schools really had gay dancing.. yeah and darlings* just coz my friend said beverly was nice .. doesnt mean u have to go touch her and find out more abt her and go trash her.. k darlings*.. yeah then went with ah wei .. went to church.. yeah then sat and talked with jardine and alfred for a while .. it was so funny seeing them abuse each other and their phones ... hahaha yeah .. and alfred took my wallet and ran offf...make me chase him just to get it back .. yeah then jardine gave me a ride on his bike .. he scared me k .. sometimes he would go fast then her would like makes turns.. i was screaming throughout the ride. ahhaha yeah then came home ... hahhaah.. yeah now just sitting and rotting ...haha on my way home i thought about lots of stuff.. stuff from last time .. and i realized that i miss a lot of stuff.. i miss my old class. i miss my classmates.. i miss primary school .. i miss going to town in a ultra large group.. i miss ndp... i miss singing in the bus and the way to ndp .. i miss roseann .. i miss bella... i miss jeaneth.. i miss you, stranger..i miss lots of stuff. hmmm but i dunno .. yeah going mad these days .. EFL is coming .. yet to pack .ahaha k shall go now ..
Saturday, March 06, 2004 @ 10:34 PM
Strangers we have become. what a pity,.
hey hey today was a triing and mad day.had house practise today . played tug-of-war .ahahah as usual we won. yeah then had last minute stuff to attend to.. then yeah went town watched gemma performed .. it was good. yeah then ended up walking around cine from 1st floor to the 9th floor.. yeah .then was abt to go home then my friend called and said wanted to meet up but in the end we didnt . felt so cheated . ahah just kidding then hanged around cine for a while met yan yan and amanda and callista and ended up talking then yeahjoined joleen ,marns and eliz for a while then yeah went to heeren . yes and i told some sji guy that his hair sucked today cause he happened to be asking his friends but yeah as usual he did it right in front of my face so yeah i just answered him . he was so embarrassed. ahha i felt so mean. yeah then was so bored then called jas to come down and meet me . he being a kind soul came down from far east . then yeah took a bus home. the bus was quite empty then yeah we took the whole top part of the upper deck . so fun . we started playing in the bus . yeah after a while i fell alseep on jas .and yeah i heard him whisper something into my ear . and yeah i did hear it though you think i didnt .i'm very thankful for that . youre such a dear . totally . yes .yeah i actually fell alseep .. totally man .. yeah .. going mad .. i think so .k shall go now .. byes
hula
Friday, March 05, 2004 @ 9:20 PM
hey hey .. not feeling too well these few days... down with flus and all .. sick .. yeah went to school today .. almost everyone told me i looked like i was dying ... totally... first one was KQ... even in the dark ... she said i looked like i was dying ... i mean was it that bad???... yeah had geog test k.. wanted to go home after the test but i forgot that it was at the end of the day .. yeah.. but towards the end i was ok .. but nnow its ack .. my nose's still running .. i've got a terrible headache ... this sucks ...yeah and i've got to be in school by 7.30 tomorrow.. some isabel thingy .. but yeah its for isabel so its ok .. i'll gladly go .. yeah .. tototally.. yeah got to go now.. my head's about to spilt open .. yeah .. byesss.
Thursday, March 04, 2004 @ 6:14 PM
Esplande
yesterday i went there again.but this time when i reached there i had rather a pleasant surprise.King was there. he didnt know wat time i was reaching there so king waited there.ahah yeah.we just sat down back against each other and stared at the sky.yeah.we didnt talk.yeah at least very little.we just sat there.for at least 3 hours in silence.hahah.so fun.yeahwell thank you king for not asking questions yesterday.iknow you have alot of questions to ask.but i really appreciate you keeping it to a later date.and abt the question you asked yesterday.i didnt reply u right.but yeah just to be honest.seeing you there was a pleasant surprise.it did bring a smile to my face (and i always smilek) but it didnt make me reaally happy . yeah but it was still good to know that someone's still there for me. Thank you very much King!!love ya
Hula
Tuesday, March 02, 2004 @ 7:36 PM
Shattered
i dunno wats going on in my life anymore.. everyhtings so upside down.. i dunno wat i'm thinking anymore.. this week's ca week ... its killing .. but its mostly YOU, darling..... why ???... why has things turned like that ? i'm so confused.. i'm so tired.. i dunno wats going on .. no matter how i try to find out i dont seem to get it ... after that talk ...i felt so hurt... hurting to know that u didnt need me .. hurting to know that u had to think whether u still loved me ... hurting to find out i'm nothing more then a burden now... you know after i realized that u didnt love me anymore .. i didnt know wat to do .. i tried diverting my attention.. tried to see you nothing more than a friend .. tried to think less of you .. tried to kept my self busy ..but time and time again u keep popping up... u keep popping up again and again ... and everythime i think abt it .. i feel like crying .. and now i dont even dare to have a time to sit and think cause i know i'll start think of it again .. i dont dare to sleep at night .. thats why i go out .. esplande... its so beautiful there.. i try so hard to make myself think of other things but it seems so impossible... and now i sometimes do feel u dont even wanna have anything to do with me anymore... not even friends .... i dunnoo.. i know wat ever u felt for me is already gone but i really hope at least we'll still be friends and you'll still share with me your problems.please dont block me out ..please. i'm sorry . i really am .. i really am sorry for causing u so much trouble.. 'm sorry .. maybe now you'll think i'm right when i said you'd be happier with someone else. someone better... i dunno wats going on now .. but please do take care. love you
Hula