Thursday, April 29, 2004 @ 8:40 PM
You make me smile. You make me laugh. You make me scream. You make me whine.You make me think of you . You make me do weird things. You make me angry . You make me go crazy .You make me love you lots..Dearie1!! you're the best. ahhahahaa
wadever.. i just wrote something really retarded .. ahaha .. wat the hell .. hahaha cow cow cow ...
Monday, April 26, 2004 @ 8:20 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUSOF!!!!!!
may all your wishes and dreams come true.. God bless you always..!!!! lots of love
Sunday, April 25, 2004 @ 1:00 AM
dearie is mad .. deaire sat at the bustop for ages today ... ahahah ..dearie sat and sat... for like 2 hours.. watching 200 after 200 pass.. ahha dearie you are crazy .. dearie's mad .. but dearie's sweet.. ahaha totally... madness you know .... dearie's a silly cow... ahahhaha totally... dearie's a cow .. hahaha dont be so silly next ime k ... dearie cow.. ahaha
@ 12:49 AM
update again.. totally.. i'm so tired .. aboutt o fall asleep .. but i stilll have homeowrk to do ... about to die soon ... ahah thanks dear for trying to share the load eh ... but no you cant do my work .. like duh LTT will know.. ahhah she's not stupid you know.. yeah had tution again.. been doing alex's freakin hard prelim papers.. which i probably all in all did like half of it only ..vause it was simply difficult .. too diffcult..aahahha yeah .. ahha yeah .. met dear quite few times already .. ahah hah quite ok .. as i told dearie.. nothings quite in place yet.. ahha so must be patient.. ahahah yeah went to visit 7 eleven at my house that day .. first visit was with mel .. ahah she was so dying for a drink so yeah went with her.. second tme was with dear.. ahah nedded to get some stuff .. ahaha some stuff .. ahah yeah 3rd time was today .. went with dearie again to get lollis .. ahah strawberry flavour.. the ultimate flavour .. ahaha its nice ... yes.. ahah ... yeah ... my friends birthday's on monday ... hahaha everybody seems to be growing older except me .. hmphf .. ahha yeah ... dont think i should be anxious abt that.. yeah going to Sarawak on 24th of may .. going to skip about a week of school.. cool eh .. goign to help build stuff there.. so exciting .. i cant wait... totally .. ahaha ...ok .. i'm so tired.. need to catch some sleep .. totally... haha .. yeah..
Thanks deariie sweetie...love
Thursday, April 22, 2004 @ 8:16 PM
been feeling worst than ever these few days.. wats going on.. i know its time for me to be happy..but why am i not feeling the joy...why? please someone tell me wat to do.. did i make the right decision? or did i make a rash decision? i'm so confused. its time for all these to go away .. its time.. but how?please go away .. please go away .. please go away . please.
to Stressed:
i dont know who you are. but i'm replying here since you have not replied my last e mail too you. i dont know how you got my e mail address but yeah its all right .. i know you come to my blog. so yeah just hope you read it here. abt you and whoever. i'm really sorry about you two . things really can happen very unexpectedly. i know you are hurting and all you feel like doing is to just cry .but dont. i know it hurts you so much. to not beable to call or talk to whoever but thats wat you've got to bare with . and if you are thinking of trying to forget whoever.thinking it'll make you feel better. it wont. cause then you'll start to miss whoever.and you'll long to talk to whoever.cause ultimately in the end you'll still want whoever to be part of your life and be with you .abt you and whoever.let's just take whoever as a passerby on the street who merely caught your attention and you stayed a little longer than expected.but now its time to go. time to carry on to your destination. well you take care.. feel free to approach me in school when you wanan k . take care
Tuesday, April 20, 2004 @ 8:19 PM
today was a very bad day ... very very bad. Everything went wrong.. :(
Monday, April 19, 2004 @ 6:00 PM
Hey sorry for not updating for so many days..yes sports meet.. was just on friday !!! and yes!!!!1 ISABEL WON!!!! .. so totalyy. sp roud of Isabel and all the isabellians man... i'll always be an Isabellian .. ahaha yeah then after that mel,clara, charlotte,rah, wei and francessa and liyana went town .. ahah ate at pastamania...ahha yeah combined tables.. aha totally..yeah then we went up to bowling alley ..thought of bowling but yeah there was no space.. anyway yeah we saw these few retarded guys all crowding round the game machine playing porno foto found.. ahha yeah they looked so freakin desperate and yeah they were even standing on the dustbins. ahaha yeah .. then we went to heeren to take neos.. everyone tried to fit in the pic .. only some turned out well.. aahha yeah ... then i went to my mum's office to meet her.. ahaha yeha then came home.. yeah then i talked with my friend for almost 3 hours...!!! haven talked on the phone so long ever since.. ahahaha yeah but he's damn funny.. he's in pink house!!!1 ahaha so cute !!! so funny !!1.. haha yeah ... today was shit.. everyone in school was sick ... ahah joanne... sha sha.. me.. had the flu .. yeah i used like i think abt 4 packets of tissue... ahah yeah .. came home right after school man ... totally...haha yeah these few days i know i haven been myself ... i know just that i have been think ing abt lots of stuff ..but yeah ..i'll be back to normal in no time .. ahaha yeah ....i miss my honey .... !!!!! hahaha ARGH!!! ok .. yeah ... just had to say that !!1 haha . k
Thursday, April 15, 2004 @ 8:10 PM
i'm so tired today .. did banner.. i've no idea whats going on now.. i'm being ignored for some reason.
Wednesday, April 14, 2004 @ 6:37 PM
today's majorly screwed . worst day. hai :(
Tuesday, April 13, 2004 @ 8:46 PM
hey hey .. today was quite a funny day .. quite weird too.. early morning came to school .. was dman tired .. cramming bio into my head .. yeah then yeah got to know a new friend today . Well actually he's my friend's firend. Yeah Yusof. quite a funny guy.. yeah he was telling me how he and my friend are darlings.. ahha yeah .. yeah and he keeps laughing.. ahah .. really weird but yeah nice.. :)..dont know him well ... but ohwells yeah good luck to him for his National Juniors.. yeah then jade came to school in her contacts today.. everyone was like teasing her .. cause like ehr eyes dman small then when she smile cannot see them .. and she keeps smiling.. ahah then mel and wei kept going" JADE!!! i cannot see your eyes!!" ahah yeah damn cute... yeah then i called her Snoopy .. cause she really looked like one.. ahah no offense k jadey.. ahha yeha then had my 3 science today can .. so tired .. and miss koh my new english teacher .. so funny .. she said" whats always holding us back at the physic lab. why we always come up so late" then i was like" Mr Ng lah." then she was like" why, too attractive is it?"" then i told jadey " So totally lor.. he look so handsome like Manometer.." then jadey like laughed and she kept totallying.. she damn weird can .. yes and she flooded KQ's table today .. dman poor thing man .. KQ i feel so sorry for you .. ahah yeah then ya.. todays was quite ok ... relatively fun k ..
Monday, April 12, 2004 @ 8:05 PM
To Mel: Mel i'm really sorry k .. i didnt mean to not tell you .. but is cause i had my reasons. i'm really sorry i know you are dman upset with me.. i ahve no excuse for not telling you that .. but i'm really sorry .. really... :(
@ 6:48 PM
Using dee's blog again . have some really important things to say to someone.
To *He*: I am indeeded very angry and pissed off with you.and i am not sorry for what i said about you.and please dont come and try to act so decent and nice infront of *her* by being polite and calm about everything. "Peace be with him"?? what is that all about?Cut the crap about trying to be nice cause i think no matter what you do now ,you can never ever be kind and nice. I really think that *she* has a really messed up conception about you, that you are so kind and nice and that you still care for her. and that is why she is still freaking trying to protect you. no matter what i say about you. she will come up with something to say to protect you. and to be frank it is really pissing me off cause i do not see why she needs to protect you cause your really dont deserve it. I believe what i said about you is all true.What i said about you moving on.Dont you think it is true.or maybe indeed you have moved on already and you ahve the cheek to say that*she* has moved on.I think you obviously know she has not.What i said about you pulling a fast one on her. Arent i right. you say you miss her but yet you are so nonchalant towards her. You dont even bother to call her not too mention message her. you know personally when i miss someone i would call that person and talk to that person so that i would not miss him or her so much . but i guess you are someone very different. you completely shut yourself out from her.You may think it is so good for you. You dont want to have anything ever to do with *her* cause she hurt you before. i know that is basic human reaction but dont you see that you are hurting her. a hell lot. You were the one she told all her problems too.The one she actually could depend on besides her close other friend from school.When you stopped talking to her, She could not tell anyone her problems She could not voice it out anywhere.cause she feared people knowing.and she couldnt go to you.as you refused to message her or even acknowledge her presence sometimes.She took it as you hated her. I had to tell her at the beginning that no you did not but you were just busy but i, myself is even starting to doubt myself and what i tell her.Now no matter what i do , i beg her, i plead with her, no matter how much i cajole her into telling me her problems ,she will refuse .cause she doesnt trust me to keep it too herself. and now everytime i see her , her face is so filled with troubles. she keeps everything all in too herself. and i know one day she'll just explode and break down again.You know i didnt really ahve a bad impression of you at the beginning but as the days go by i feel myself starting to hate you. hate you very much.but yes i really wish to help her cause to see her cry or try ti fihgt back her tears , trying to be strong, really breaks my heart. i dunno about you. But seeing her in such a bad shape really kills me. But i should think it is of no business of yours already. I know you wont be very happy about this mail again and would like to scold me again. feel free to shout your shit at me. I really think you are an ass hole. and i'm not sorry about the language.
jas -theman-
Saturday, April 10, 2004 @ 10:18 AM
HAPPY!! SAD!!
hi guys. using dee's blog .today she allowed me to anyhow use her blog.but ofcourse the neh woman wont let me change her template.she damn crazy. but she today very shocking let me use her bloggy.i think she doing homework. dont know what homework.but ya she very hardworking . probably thats why she cannot be bothered with what i am writing here.
To the supermans(as dee calls you ): *she* is over at my house now. *she is there.*i feel so happy just sittin so close to her*.*but also dman sad to know that she just there but she is not mine.*She will never be mine*.today i talked to *her*. Serious talk. I asked *her again. but *she* just said *she* was not ready and it is not time cause *she* has alot of things distracting her.i understand that *she* is not ready. I also know that i, jas, can wait for *her*. I have the patience. but what is distracting *her*. is it *him* again?. Is she thinking about *him* again?I dont understand what does *he* have that i dont?Whatever *he* can do i can too. Though *she* tells me it is not *him*. i always think it is *him*. Sometimes i really just want to go look *him* up in his school and bash his face. *He* is so obviuosly over *her* and moving on without *her*. Why does *he* still bother to tell *her * he misses her? What is *he* trying to pull man? It's as if *he* hasnt caused enough trouble for everyone.What does *he* want? I think it is partly because of my atitude also. It is notvery good towards *her*. That day i just shouted at *her* somemore.-sigh- Guys what should i do? i'm freakin lost.
To *her*: i know you will read this.and a whole lot of pple will read it thats why i want to put how i feel here.so everyone will know how i feel and how serious i am. I will wait for you . i will. i have the patience. i think. but i really need to know why u keep saying it is not right . the time is not right.why? and what are the things distracting you? is it *him*.? is it school?. i think it is *him*. his reappearence made you think abt *him* again right> and everytime *he* says something sweet and nice , you start to fall for it again right? but dont you understand? it is all over. *he* has moved on already . As in *he* is over you.? I can bet with you *he* doesnt even think about you anymore.and all the times *he* said he missed you .is all fake and lies. *he* is trying to pull a fast one on you .dont you get it?. How can you believe *him* when he spends his days now with other girls on his free time? and *he* has a blast time with them. Which part of the shows *he* is even thinking of you . *he* probably thinks you are a bitch. You tell me. has *he* messaged you or called you in these few days? . Forget him. You have me. I can do watever *he* has given you. I will do it much better. I know my attitude towards you lately has not been very good. but it gets really frustrating with all these things around , most specially *him*. i'm sorry .
okay i have said what i want to say to everyone. i guess its time to give back the bloggy . i think i wrote i pretty long entry . hehe.
To zel: You childish brat. stop jumping on my bed . the springs are all going to fall off. i can feel them moving. go jump on Sen's bed.hehe
jas- the man-
Thursday, April 08, 2004 @ 8:12 PM
Flying Away
hey peeps.. Good fridays tomorrow .. ahah going for mass... have too more like it .. ahahyeah .. totally.. went to watch the rugby finals...SA WON... ahahha so proud of them .. ahaha It was a pty Acs didnt win though .. really sad for them ... but yeah they played well .. and i believe they will be up and going in no time... aahah yeah ...
Tuesday, April 06, 2004 @ 9:02 PM
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too, but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
@ 8:15 PM
Sorry i havent been updating lately ...b een busy with school and yeah of course lazy ... ahahah totally.. well yeah ahha Just wanted to congratulate the ruggers from sji .. they played really well yesterday ... totallyy... you all are the best ... totally...
to zul: hey dah... You played really well yesterday .. Congratulations!!1.. i'm so proud of you !!! totally.. ahahha You're the best man .. !!! Love ya...
Friday, April 02, 2004 @ 9:10 PM
well you are most welcome.but i really dont deserve it. after what i had put u through, i'm thankful enough that you still wanna be my friend. so i think i should be the one saying thanks instead. and its not that i had forgotten abt everything. i still remember very clearly .. abt everything.. but its just that i chose to block it out. and it can be quite hurting when you always say i've forgotten abt everything.. or i had no trouble forgetting it ..i dont wanna forget. cause those were some of my loveliy memories and i wanna keep them close to my heart.. and if i were to forget them i would also forget you and pretend that u never existed. but the truth is that i still want you around.. i want to be your friend again ... thank you for being such a dear.
Thursday, April 01, 2004 @ 9:22 PM
How do i say goodbye to what we had??.