Tuesday, May 18, 2004 @ 7:47 PM
hey its been along time since i've blog.. ahaha yeah been busy with exams and stuff. today was the last paper... YAY!!!!but no cannot go have fun guess why. cause must stay back everyday until 5 plus for preparation . today after the chem paper. rah , jo, jadey , kq and cheryl headed to town for lunch before i went back to school . so fun can.. dunno what the hell jadey and jo were doing . they kept laughing and laughing. and jo miss fussy .. just joking. kept complaining about the utensils being dirty and all .. ahah yeah and we had a fun time. shouting downstairs.. more like jadey did.. ahaha yeah quite fun . then saw lyndsey and kiri and sylvia... then ya lyndsey stole kq's pizza. ahah yeah and nikko i never abandon you ... really... hahah yeah ahd to rush backt o school .. ahah yeah we sang so many songs can .. then ya had briefing.. then best part malay .. ahaha damn fun .. ahah learn quite a bit .. but trying to get the hang of it.. yeah then nenghui having crisis.. dunno wheter to go home and change shoe or go town straight .. anyway we told her too waste money .. better go town straight.. aahah .. so yeah just got home.. pretty tired...
Miracles dont happen over night. they too need time.
Friday, May 14, 2004 @ 12:31 PM
I'm writing this in hope a miracle would happen . i know you will read this . one day no matter how.i just hope you will understand how i feel. i want you to know what is going through my mind. i want you to know that i am really sorry. I'm sorry for what i have done to you. I'm sorry if i had shouted at you. I'm sorry if i had hurt you . I'm really sorry. I really hate myself. I hate my freakin life. I hate my freakin mind. I hate my freakin mouth. Why did i have to ask you that question ? Why? Why? WHY!! why could not i have kept it to myself . why did i ahve to know . You know i really wished i had no asked you that question in the first place. If i had not asked you , we would still be together right ?Why ? I'm an ass hole. When you said that you had to think about it again and that you were freakin confused. did you know i was quite stunned. Though i know i shouldnt have and when you walked out of that door, you really made me feel so bad. i felt horrid. i really just wanted to cry there and then but i couldnt. i couldnt . i had to be strong. i had to be my normal self. These past 2 weeks has been hell. Freakin hell. everyday has been nothing but a worthless and empty day. these 2 weeks has been nothing but a big drama . a big act. everyday i try to act normal , thinking that if i kept myself busy with other things, i'll be able to take my mind off you .but every time i'm alone.i become that miserable freak . i feel so useless. good for nothing .i long to call you everyday but i cant . i long to be able to talk to you but i cant.Everytime i watch spongebob, i think of you. Everytime i do math, I think of you. Everytime i do Physics, i think of you. Everytime i sit on my sofa , i think of you. Everytime i hear someone say "totally" i think of you. Everytime i hear the word "bastard" i think of you. Everytime i see cine , i think of you. Have you any idea how nuts this is driving me. everyting i try u still come to my mind. I miss you . I really do. I miss you so much . I miss talking to you. I missing walking around town with you . I miss singing you songs. I miss eating with you . I miss looking at you. I miss your smile. I miss your touch. I miss you sitting next to me watching cartoons. I miss you scolding me. I miss you shouting at me. I miss the way u sneeze. I miss the way you try to cover up after you have cried . I miss the way u say wadever. i miss you voice. these few days i have been hoping you would call. i dont even dare to put down my phone . or even leave it for a sec. i fear i would miss your call. everytime my phone lights up , i rush to it thinking it'll be you but i wont.please . please come back .. please give me a call. please. i dont mind being in second place i dont mind at all. you shouldnt mind either . its all right.please dont disappoint me. i really hope this miracle will come through.
One name makes me blush
One smile dries my tears away
One touch brings a chill thrugh my spine
One footstep increases my heartbeats
One presence makes me nervous
One voice seems to be an angelic tune of care & concern
One question troubles me all the time
Can you be mine?
- Dear i miss you -
jas~king~
Tuesday, May 04, 2004 @ 6:44 PM
to you *) : I'm sorry .
Monday, May 03, 2004 @ 7:07 PM
I finally found someone, that knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete
We started over coffee, we started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin
This time it's different,
It's all because of you,
It's better than it's ever been
'cause we can talk it through
my favorite line was "can i call you sometime?"
It's all you had to say
To take my breath away
This is it, oh, i finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
'cause whatever i do,
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone,
someone
I finally found someone,
Did i keep you waiting,
I didn't mind
I apologize,
Baby, that's fine
I would wait forever
Just to know you were mine
Bryan:
You know i love your hair,
Are you sure it looks right?
I love what you wear,
Isn't it too tight?
You're exceptional,
I can't wait for the rest of my life . . .
This is it, oh, i finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
'cause whatever i do,
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone,
Whatever i do,
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone